still around

Ya know, in person, I'd have alot to say. On paper, on screen, not so much. Writing just isn't my forte.

..≠..

If everyone is destined for something, everyone has a passion in life, well..what's mine? What am I destined for? What am I meant to be, to do?

So I'm sitting in this meeting for a club I'm not even in, & they start talking. They seem really engaged in what they do, talking about graduate school, and what kind of future it'll provide for them. So then I think about it, and how that relates to me. Am I passionate in what I do? Do I strive to excel in it? Do I know where it'll take me?

No. Nothing. Zip.

Math..I don't hate hate it. I can tolerate it. On a certain level I do like it. But I've reached my peak. I find myself not being able to put my heart in it. And I can't make a life of something I don't -want- to be doing. Where's there to go in math anyway? Standing in front of a chalkboard doing math problems? No.

My sister keeps telling me to do engineering, & the benefits are favorable. There's just enough math, but not -only- math. They make BANK. There's lots of opportunites out there for an engineer, the career fair had loads of companies looking for engineers. So the cons..I don't have one. Not one! The only thing I can think of is the building's far, and that's a shitty excuse. So why isn't it appealing me?! Oh yeah, it's alot of hard work, more work I'm afraid I won't be able to commit to.

I'll give math a last ride, talk to advisors, see if my opinion for it changes. But the thought of chalk in my hands for a living, that's just not me.

i love part deux

~Google map's 3d feature thing
~engadget
~post its
~huli
~eating while watching food network
~that someone actually made a bronze statue of the shoe that was thrown at Bush
~bejeweled
~google translate

~5 gum commercials
~jansport booksacks, they know their shit
~Lucy. Anytime of day, I'll always be in the mood to watch that show

~yawning & stretching..it feels amazingggg

~karma..ahh nothing like getting your just desserts

~"stuff asian people like"
~oscar going beserk of a dog on tv
~that 70s show..the mom, hilarious

~the internet...3 things i check everyday: fb, porn, & wikipedia (oh yeah, i love wikipedia as well)
~Dat Phan..damn him, he's funny
~reggaeton.. -that- is the jam

~cramster.com
~dice-shaped beads
~hammocks

~ordering eggs over-easy..it's not even my favorite form of egg, but it's fun being the difficult one

~converse shoes, as bad arch support they are
~meat..yes, i know, that's what she said.
~225 magazine
~youtube hd
~hot chocolate on a cold day

~ratemyprof
~Nefarious purposes
~orange soda..not as close as Kel, though
~Peter’s endless fight with the chicken
~Merely clicking “L” for Louisiana
~fml..makes me feel better about my own
~Microsoft onenote
~phallic symbols
~Anthony Bourdain & Andrew Zimmern..for different aspects, though.
~Velcro
~the microwave ~“A Modest Proposal”
~Playing the drum with my hands
~Cheez-its

playing ketchup

Wow, it's been a month since I wrote anything. Damn it seems long when I think about it, yet it feels like yesterday.

What have I been doing all summer? Hmm let's see..work. Can I think of anything else? Oh! Wonder Girls. I totally met Yoobin and my shoulder grazed her boob in the photo we took. Ahh that's a memory to treasure.

Anyway, school's back in which is rather refreshing, but my mindset is still in July, so I really need to bone up on calc and such. I'm not so fond of the extra traffic, long lines, and..swine flu. I actually know someone who has it, possibly two. How scary is that? When reality hits ya, it packs a punch. I hope they'll be fine though..

How come I never have anything insightful to write about? Though when I was watching a drama, I started thinking about what makes a good villain. I mean, anybody can play Johnny Goodman, but it takes work to be evil, to make everyone want to hate you. If I'm ever in a movie, I'd totally play the villain, being the hero is so vanilla.

Yeah, that wasn't insightful either, but fuck it.

hmm, queer

So I was standing in line at the movies yesterday, and these teenage boys in line to the left & right of me apparently know one other and are making fun of each other back and forth. I can't help but overhear of course so I just pretend not to be paying attention. Then one of the guys taps me and says "Hey, you see that guy over there? He's too much of a pussy to stand next to that fine girl." The guy that was directed to replied to that and said to me "Well him, he's a faggot. I mean it's cool that you're gay, but he's a total cocksucker."

...wow, is it really so obvious? I'm not offended or anything, I was just taken aback from their (dead on) assumption. It was an awkward moment.

But then, it was kind of interesting how they didn't mind if I was or wasn't. I mean it's not like I wear it on my sleeves, but I wouldn't tell someone I was straight (anymore). I suppose living in the south, I expect the general population to not be so amenable.

So yea..that's the highlight of my day

Giả Vờ Yêu

Đêm chia ly, mưa buồn rơi héo hắt
Bước chân anh trên đường khuya hoang vắng
Bao yêu thương nơi này ta đã có
Chính nơi đây chúng ta xa rời nhau

Khi yêu nhau bây giờ anh mới biết
Trái tim em không còn như lúc trước
Sau đêm nay hai đường hai lối bước
Đường đi mới sẽ vắng bóng em bên đời anh

Lần cuối ta nắm tay nhau thì hãy nói hết đi em
Những năm tháng yêu nhau giả vờ
Mình cứ cố gắng bên nhau hạnh phúc vun đắp ai kia
Lối đi đến nơi nào cho chúng ta
Đành thế thôi cứ chia tay dù biết sẽ tốt cho nhau
Bước cứ bước em về với người
Lòng vẫn không nói nên câu rằng trái tim vẫn yêu em
Chẳng thể sống bên người như lúc xưa...

(an)other

Why must I share? There's already enough I have to put up with. This is mine. It makes me stick out, makes it about me. Pick anything, anything but this..

yeah, this is crazy

As of 6/13/2009 12:02:53 AM EDT
I am 19 years old, which is 231 months old, which is 1,004 weeks old, which is 7,034 days old, which is 168,816 hours old, which is 10,128,962 minutes old, which is 607,737,773 seconds old. In other words, I'm old...

why is incompetency contagious?

Swine flu? Psht, it seems like incompetency is spreading like wildfire. Is it too much to ask for someone to do what they're supposed to do in a timely manner? If it is, then we're fucked.

HARRISON'S INFERNO

My spin on Dante's classic:

*:extra hell for you

Facebook

• people who update their status every 5 minutes (I don't care that you're eating spaghettios and are about to go to work)
• people who become a fan of everything imaginable
• people who forward or suggest random shit
• people who upload pictures of the most insignificant stuff*
• people who quote the bible

Hypocrites

• liars
• bad liars
• adulterers*
• people who say one thing, but do another
• immoral people*
• people who don't keep their word*
• traitors (Dante got that one right)
• people hating something they don't know
• people who don't stand up for themselves yet expect it to be done
• people who never give but always receive*

Bad Drivers

• senior citizen drivers*
• slow drivers
• reckless drivers
• drivers who don't let you merge
• people who own dilapidated cars with nice rims
• drivers with the music loud and the window down just so everyone can hear it too
• drunk drivers
• jaywalkers

Irresponsible, Immature, Ignorant People

• parents who bring their children to adult places*
• loud children
• children in general
• racists...to asians, anyway
• asians who hate soy sauce
• people ignorant, ashamed, or indifferent to their heritage and culture
• viet parents who don't speak to their children in viet
• viet parents who don't name their children consistently (no, you can't have all the children with viet names but one)
• people who think cursing is oh-so terrible*
• people who burst into song randomly
• close minded people
• flakes*
• people who don't acknowledge the past
• people who never try new things
• people who don't say goodbye
• people who wrap everything in religion
• people who push religion on me*
• PEOPLE WHO CANNOT HANDLE ONE SINGLE TASK
• people who judge a book by its cover
• people who deny the obvious
• people who doodle on tests
• people who don't do what their supposed to do
• people who put everything off until the last possible minute
• people who have their priorities explicitly not together
  
• people who don't take responsibility for their actions
• people who don't have an opinion, but just follows the herd

Bad teachers

• professors that BUTCHER names (dan-TEE), terms (velacity)
• teachers who just don't give a damn
• graduate student professors*
• teachers that don't teach
• teachers that can't teach*

People I Hate

• know-it-alls
• people who always lecture me*
• people who scoff at me for being a math major
• attention whores
• people who wear socks and slippers
• people who have an iphone, an ipod, & a mac
• people who go to ryan street high
• the "what-if" people*
• people who write checks at stores and make people in line behind them wait forever*
• the vain & conceited
• people who think a B is literally the end of the world as we know it
  
• people who never face reality
• people who order me around (Hell. No.)*
• braggers
• PEOPLE WHO WRITE CHECKS WHEN 5BILLION PEOPLE ARE WAITING IN LINE
  
• people who love that small, crappy lake town
• people who always go on the offense to everything i say*
• a few of those lsmsa kids
• people who think i'm weird just because i'm allergic to peanuts
• people who say new orlEEEns, nawlins & baton rouJe
• people who correct me!*

Yeah these are probably bad circles. They're not even in order or anything. Is that nine circles yet? Damn, just 6. Oh well, 6 is a Hellish number so there.

I just wrote this randomly since I stepped on the book earlier today & it came into mind. I'll probably keep updating this as it comes to mind.

~Divina Commedia~