crappy or happy

Stumbled on this today at work. Some of them are too girly for my tastes, but her mini messages are nice.








Her cheesy drawings brought a genuine smile to my face, which hasn't been happening lately. I've been putting on a "happy" face on the outside, but I'm really burdened.




I think daydreaming makes me happy. Dreams are great, but I can't control those. Daydreaming, everything always goes my way.

blur

The days are running together for me now. "What's today? The 14th? Shut up, nuhuh."

I need to make this one somewhat memorable. I need to be able to go "Oh yeah, that's when ______ happened, that's when I went ______ , that's when I finally got _____ ...I need to be able to fill in these blanks by the next ball drop.

twinkle

This is weird, but you know those people whose eyes just express any emotion they have? I love that. It tells so much without words spoken.

I also like people who have a great smile, a genuine one, not a fake shallow one.

So yeah, that's my random quirk of the day.

just tap 3 times

May ngay nay toi da thay may nguoi vong day dang...ngu thiet. Tai sao toi muon quan he voi dam nay? Boi vi toi khong duoc gap clique viet? Trach nhu vay. May chuyen nay toi ghet thiet. Di theo vong may nguoi nay lam tao ghet no.

I think I miss how it used to be, but do I really? Ngay xua khi cho nay chi la cho toi thoi.

All this bad stuff keeps happening. Not really to me, yet I take it so personal. I don't even have a hand in it, but I'm investing alot of attention into it.

I miss her. Only today when watching the presedential address about the pull from the Middle East did it really hit me. She's really there, serving her country. As much as she hates it, I really respect her, that's a noble thing. Will I do anything to benefit my country?

Am I thankful for anything for anything this year? I'm thankful for..the kindness of strangers. And not even to me. I was reading this news article about a woman who accidently called the wrong number, thinking she reached her daughter, telling her that she sent her daughter money for food even though that meant missing a mortgage payment. The stranger was touched by it, called that mother back, and said she would pay for the mortgage and her daughter's groceries. I mean I guess that might not seem so significant, but it makes me put faith in humanity. I hope I can help someone like that someday.

I've been reading more lately. Losing myself in a fictional world. What am I hoping to do? Hide from my real world problems of course. Damn stories, it's as easy as that eh?

Speaking of eh, I just found out my professor is Canadian. I told him that explains so much jokingly, and he responded with "Doesn't it, -eh-?" Totally my humor. It sucks I'm only getting to know this at the end of the semester. Goddamn am I ready to be done with this semester, though I doubt next will be any better. Harder classes, different classes, fuck.

Yeah, back to then. That'd be nice. Toi mong tro lai ngay xua.

i love part deux

~Google map's 3d feature thing
~engadget
~post its
~huli
~eating while watching food network
~that someone actually made a bronze statue of the shoe that was thrown at Bush
~bejeweled
~google translate

~5 gum commercials
~jansport booksacks, they know their shit
~Lucy. Anytime of day, I'll always be in the mood to watch that show

~yawning & stretching..it feels amazingggg

~karma..ahh nothing like getting your just desserts

~"stuff asian people like"
~oscar going beserk of a dog on tv
~that 70s show..the mom, hilarious

~the internet...3 things i check everyday: fb, porn, & wikipedia (oh yeah, i love wikipedia as well)
~Dat Phan..damn him, he's funny
~reggaeton.. -that- is the jam

~cramster.com
~dice-shaped beads
~hammocks

~ordering eggs over-easy..it's not even my favorite form of egg, but it's fun being the difficult one

~converse shoes, as bad arch support they are
~meat..yes, i know, that's what she said.
~225 magazine
~youtube hd
~hot chocolate on a cold day

~ratemyprof
~Nefarious purposes
~orange soda..not as close as Kel, though
~Peter’s endless fight with the chicken
~Merely clicking “L” for Louisiana
~fml..makes me feel better about my own
~Microsoft onenote
~phallic symbols
~Anthony Bourdain & Andrew Zimmern..for different aspects, though.
~Velcro
~the microwave ~“A Modest Proposal”
~Playing the drum with my hands
~Cheez-its

hmm, queer

So I was standing in line at the movies yesterday, and these teenage boys in line to the left & right of me apparently know one other and are making fun of each other back and forth. I can't help but overhear of course so I just pretend not to be paying attention. Then one of the guys taps me and says "Hey, you see that guy over there? He's too much of a pussy to stand next to that fine girl." The guy that was directed to replied to that and said to me "Well him, he's a faggot. I mean it's cool that you're gay, but he's a total cocksucker."

...wow, is it really so obvious? I'm not offended or anything, I was just taken aback from their (dead on) assumption. It was an awkward moment.

But then, it was kind of interesting how they didn't mind if I was or wasn't. I mean it's not like I wear it on my sleeves, but I wouldn't tell someone I was straight (anymore). I suppose living in the south, I expect the general population to not be so amenable.

So yea..that's the highlight of my day

hey

Man it feels like an eternity since I've written anything. It's not that I haven't had the time, I just have had other things in mind, shuffling priorities around.

School has been..school. Some days are fine & I'm like "wow, today's a really good day." And then there are those "ugh, I can't wait to get home & pretend that didn't just happen."

I'm always on a deadline. I hate that. "Yay it's Friday. Wait, essay due Monday. Fuck shit damn." It never lets me relax. I'm not sure I even do anymore.

I'm conflicted on whether to transfer or not. Initially, after two years of LSU, it's onto UH. Now, I'm not so sure. It's not bad here. Comfortable. But if I don't do this, will I ever leave? It's weird how I'm plannin my future semesters at a time.

Yeah. This is random & crappy. Sorry.

merry -crap-mas!

Me & my sticky fingers! I got:

• 1 beanie
• 2 cups
• 1 string of beads
• 2 water bottles
• 1 ruler
• 2 pocket calculators
• 1 powder brush
• 10 stress relievers
• 1..rain..tracker
• 3 yoyos
• 1 mini office supply kit
• 2 tee shirts, one corn-shaped
• 1 portable caddy
• 3 tote bags, filled
• 1 dancing robot
• 7 cup warmers
• 1 lanyard
• 2 Frisbees
• 1 headphone speakers
• 7 post-it pads
• 1 business card holder
• 2 headphones
• 1 mouse pad
• 6 notepads
• 1 pack of screwdrivers
• 3 decks of cards
• 1 cookie with a logo on it
• 2 light up bouncy balls
• 1 pin
• 10 highlighters
• 1 meat thermometer
• 2 mini 1st aid kits
• 1 cd cleaner
• 2 whistles
• 1 tape measure
• 12 key chains
• 1 staple remover
• 3 flashlights
• 1 tin of mints
• 3 suitcase tags
• 1 glasses cloth
• 2 letter openers
• 1 paper clip holder
• 2 magnets
• 1.. I don’t know, but it feels slimy
• 1 flash drive…only one! :(
• LOTS & LOTS of candy
• 1 logo imprinted cookie
• At least 50 pens of all sizes, shapes, colors, & designs
• 1 back pack strap
• 1..rubber chicken

Not a bad haul, but next time is going to be even –more-.

hi

Hi? Wow, original. I really don't have anything particular or interesting to say, but I figure if I keep writing, something will come to me.
....writer's block...

Here at Coffee Bean, it's rather dead. But that's okay, too many people annoy me.

Ahhh internet, sweet sweet internet. How I've missed you so. I always check 4 things everytime: Facebook, Capital One, LSU, & Blogger. Oh, & I turn on Megaupload to download....documentaries. Yeah, that sounds plausible.

I feel unaccomplished being here. I want to go -home.- Hm. In only a few months, a new strange city has already been adopted as my domicile. Though being here spending time with friends who I hardly get to see during school is much valued, I feel...unfitting here. Everyone is going on with their seperate lives, & I am merely trying to cling on, hoping for a moment of attention. I hate that.

I want "để tìm bản thân mình."

...it's lonely here.

done.

Whew. Time to exhale. Hello sleep.

winter wonderland?

I'm having difficulty typing this. My fingers are numb, & move..chunkily. Must be frozen, really. I woke up early to get some more studying done at the library. I walk out the door, & what do I see but a rather thick layer of white on...everything. It registers. "Oh my god! It's snow!"

A car literally skidded 3 lanes over to mine & almost hit me. Not fun.

At least everyone around me is marveling like buffoons as well. I should be studying. My final is in less than half an hour.

I wish someone, anyone, was here to share this with me now. Two guys in the quad were having a snowball fight. I want to throw a snowball at someone!

The guy on the computer across from me has specks of snow in his hair. I guess he doesn't feel it yet. *reaches up to head* Oh. I can relate.

Thursday, 7:07 am. December 11th, 2008. Louisiana. Baton Rouge. LSU. Snow. It's so weird writing that word!

I'm going to be sad to see it go. See you in...18 more years? Let this moment last just until you're by my side.

.....I just can't stop smiling.....

anh joseph cao is my obama

"1st Vietnamese-American elected to US Congress."

That makes me really happy.

Once in Kinder, a guy walked up & merely asked me "North or South?" The nerve.

in comparison

I walk by a woman passing out flyers. She looks seemingly nice, friendly, smiles to everyone who makes eye contact. I get handed one too. Interestingly enough, it says in big bold letters THE AWFUL FATE OF THE LOST SOUL. In summation, it says we're all going to Hell.

I walk by another person, some white guy that looks like he'd rather be home sleeping or up to no good. I can sympathize. He hands me a pamphlet also. Turns out to be a Chinese restaurant's takeout menu. "Eat as mush as you can." Lovely.

astro babble

When our Sun becomes a red giant, it will puff up with a diameter of 1 AU. In other words, we're dead.