la dee da

I'm at work now, but I'd rather write a post than actually do what I'm paid for. I actually haven't really invested much effort into anything lately, I'm do apathetic about everything, which I know will bring really bad consequences.

I guess one thing I've been keeping up with is music, though I guess that's just a hobby. I keep listening to ballads lately. Alot of Vietnamese songs are actually about sadness, so I wonder what that says about our culture. The pain of emotions, to put in lyrics and convey it is something special.

Okay: the future. What am I going to do tomorrow? Next month? Next year? I keep thinking about where my life is going, and what I can do at this point in time. But all I'm thinking about now is going home & taking a nap. Typical.

well, on the other hand

Halloween is done, & I've seen some pretty comical costumes. I didn't dress up as anything, but now I kinda wish I had.

This has got me thinking. Villains. We all hate villains, right? With every hero comes a villain who's only objective seems to bring the downfall of the cherished do-gooder.

If I had to pick, I think I'd rather be the bad guy. People like to like the good guys, but they love to hate the bad guys. It draws you in, wondering what a villain will do next.

Anyway, I'm just at working, not working as usual. That's evil, right?

still around

Ya know, in person, I'd have alot to say. On paper, on screen, not so much. Writing just isn't my forte.

..≠..

If everyone is destined for something, everyone has a passion in life, well..what's mine? What am I destined for? What am I meant to be, to do?

So I'm sitting in this meeting for a club I'm not even in, & they start talking. They seem really engaged in what they do, talking about graduate school, and what kind of future it'll provide for them. So then I think about it, and how that relates to me. Am I passionate in what I do? Do I strive to excel in it? Do I know where it'll take me?

No. Nothing. Zip.

Math..I don't hate hate it. I can tolerate it. On a certain level I do like it. But I've reached my peak. I find myself not being able to put my heart in it. And I can't make a life of something I don't -want- to be doing. Where's there to go in math anyway? Standing in front of a chalkboard doing math problems? No.

My sister keeps telling me to do engineering, & the benefits are favorable. There's just enough math, but not -only- math. They make BANK. There's lots of opportunites out there for an engineer, the career fair had loads of companies looking for engineers. So the cons..I don't have one. Not one! The only thing I can think of is the building's far, and that's a shitty excuse. So why isn't it appealing me?! Oh yeah, it's alot of hard work, more work I'm afraid I won't be able to commit to.

I'll give math a last ride, talk to advisors, see if my opinion for it changes. But the thought of chalk in my hands for a living, that's just not me.

i love part deux

~Google map's 3d feature thing
~engadget
~post its
~huli
~eating while watching food network
~that someone actually made a bronze statue of the shoe that was thrown at Bush
~bejeweled
~google translate

~5 gum commercials
~jansport booksacks, they know their shit
~Lucy. Anytime of day, I'll always be in the mood to watch that show

~yawning & stretching..it feels amazingggg

~karma..ahh nothing like getting your just desserts

~"stuff asian people like"
~oscar going beserk of a dog on tv
~that 70s show..the mom, hilarious

~the internet...3 things i check everyday: fb, porn, & wikipedia (oh yeah, i love wikipedia as well)
~Dat Phan..damn him, he's funny
~reggaeton.. -that- is the jam

~cramster.com
~dice-shaped beads
~hammocks

~ordering eggs over-easy..it's not even my favorite form of egg, but it's fun being the difficult one

~converse shoes, as bad arch support they are
~meat..yes, i know, that's what she said.
~225 magazine
~youtube hd
~hot chocolate on a cold day

~ratemyprof
~Nefarious purposes
~orange soda..not as close as Kel, though
~Peter’s endless fight with the chicken
~Merely clicking “L” for Louisiana
~fml..makes me feel better about my own
~Microsoft onenote
~phallic symbols
~Anthony Bourdain & Andrew Zimmern..for different aspects, though.
~Velcro
~the microwave ~“A Modest Proposal”
~Playing the drum with my hands
~Cheez-its

playing ketchup

Wow, it's been a month since I wrote anything. Damn it seems long when I think about it, yet it feels like yesterday.

What have I been doing all summer? Hmm let's see..work. Can I think of anything else? Oh! Wonder Girls. I totally met Yoobin and my shoulder grazed her boob in the photo we took. Ahh that's a memory to treasure.

Anyway, school's back in which is rather refreshing, but my mindset is still in July, so I really need to bone up on calc and such. I'm not so fond of the extra traffic, long lines, and..swine flu. I actually know someone who has it, possibly two. How scary is that? When reality hits ya, it packs a punch. I hope they'll be fine though..

How come I never have anything insightful to write about? Though when I was watching a drama, I started thinking about what makes a good villain. I mean, anybody can play Johnny Goodman, but it takes work to be evil, to make everyone want to hate you. If I'm ever in a movie, I'd totally play the villain, being the hero is so vanilla.

Yeah, that wasn't insightful either, but fuck it.

hmm, queer

So I was standing in line at the movies yesterday, and these teenage boys in line to the left & right of me apparently know one other and are making fun of each other back and forth. I can't help but overhear of course so I just pretend not to be paying attention. Then one of the guys taps me and says "Hey, you see that guy over there? He's too much of a pussy to stand next to that fine girl." The guy that was directed to replied to that and said to me "Well him, he's a faggot. I mean it's cool that you're gay, but he's a total cocksucker."

...wow, is it really so obvious? I'm not offended or anything, I was just taken aback from their (dead on) assumption. It was an awkward moment.

But then, it was kind of interesting how they didn't mind if I was or wasn't. I mean it's not like I wear it on my sleeves, but I wouldn't tell someone I was straight (anymore). I suppose living in the south, I expect the general population to not be so amenable.

So yea..that's the highlight of my day

Giả Vờ Yêu

Đêm chia ly, mưa buồn rơi héo hắt
Bước chân anh trên đường khuya hoang vắng
Bao yêu thương nơi này ta đã có
Chính nơi đây chúng ta xa rời nhau

Khi yêu nhau bây giờ anh mới biết
Trái tim em không còn như lúc trước
Sau đêm nay hai đường hai lối bước
Đường đi mới sẽ vắng bóng em bên đời anh

Lần cuối ta nắm tay nhau thì hãy nói hết đi em
Những năm tháng yêu nhau giả vờ
Mình cứ cố gắng bên nhau hạnh phúc vun đắp ai kia
Lối đi đến nơi nào cho chúng ta
Đành thế thôi cứ chia tay dù biết sẽ tốt cho nhau
Bước cứ bước em về với người
Lòng vẫn không nói nên câu rằng trái tim vẫn yêu em
Chẳng thể sống bên người như lúc xưa...

(an)other

Why must I share? There's already enough I have to put up with. This is mine. It makes me stick out, makes it about me. Pick anything, anything but this..

yeah, this is crazy

As of 6/13/2009 12:02:53 AM EDT
I am 19 years old, which is 231 months old, which is 1,004 weeks old, which is 7,034 days old, which is 168,816 hours old, which is 10,128,962 minutes old, which is 607,737,773 seconds old. In other words, I'm old...