yeah, this is crazy

As of 6/13/2009 12:02:53 AM EDT
I am 19 years old, which is 231 months old, which is 1,004 weeks old, which is 7,034 days old, which is 168,816 hours old, which is 10,128,962 minutes old, which is 607,737,773 seconds old. In other words, I'm old...

why is incompetency contagious?

Swine flu? Psht, it seems like incompetency is spreading like wildfire. Is it too much to ask for someone to do what they're supposed to do in a timely manner? If it is, then we're fucked.

HARRISON'S INFERNO

My spin on Dante's classic:

*:extra hell for you

Facebook

• people who update their status every 5 minutes (I don't care that you're eating spaghettios and are about to go to work)
• people who become a fan of everything imaginable
• people who forward or suggest random shit
• people who upload pictures of the most insignificant stuff*
• people who quote the bible

Hypocrites

• liars
• bad liars
• adulterers*
• people who say one thing, but do another
• immoral people*
• people who don't keep their word*
• traitors (Dante got that one right)
• people hating something they don't know
• people who don't stand up for themselves yet expect it to be done
• people who never give but always receive*

Bad Drivers

• senior citizen drivers*
• slow drivers
• reckless drivers
• drivers who don't let you merge
• people who own dilapidated cars with nice rims
• drivers with the music loud and the window down just so everyone can hear it too
• drunk drivers
• jaywalkers

Irresponsible, Immature, Ignorant People

• parents who bring their children to adult places*
• loud children
• children in general
• racists...to asians, anyway
• asians who hate soy sauce
• people ignorant, ashamed, or indifferent to their heritage and culture
• viet parents who don't speak to their children in viet
• viet parents who don't name their children consistently (no, you can't have all the children with viet names but one)
• people who think cursing is oh-so terrible*
• people who burst into song randomly
• close minded people
• flakes*
• people who don't acknowledge the past
• people who never try new things
• people who don't say goodbye
• people who wrap everything in religion
• people who push religion on me*
• PEOPLE WHO CANNOT HANDLE ONE SINGLE TASK
• people who judge a book by its cover
• people who deny the obvious
• people who doodle on tests
• people who don't do what their supposed to do
• people who put everything off until the last possible minute
• people who have their priorities explicitly not together
  
• people who don't take responsibility for their actions
• people who don't have an opinion, but just follows the herd

Bad teachers

• professors that BUTCHER names (dan-TEE), terms (velacity)
• teachers who just don't give a damn
• graduate student professors*
• teachers that don't teach
• teachers that can't teach*

People I Hate

• know-it-alls
• people who always lecture me*
• people who scoff at me for being a math major
• attention whores
• people who wear socks and slippers
• people who have an iphone, an ipod, & a mac
• people who go to ryan street high
• the "what-if" people*
• people who write checks at stores and make people in line behind them wait forever*
• the vain & conceited
• people who think a B is literally the end of the world as we know it
  
• people who never face reality
• people who order me around (Hell. No.)*
• braggers
• PEOPLE WHO WRITE CHECKS WHEN 5BILLION PEOPLE ARE WAITING IN LINE
  
• people who love that small, crappy lake town
• people who always go on the offense to everything i say*
• a few of those lsmsa kids
• people who think i'm weird just because i'm allergic to peanuts
• people who say new orlEEEns, nawlins & baton rouJe
• people who correct me!*

Yeah these are probably bad circles. They're not even in order or anything. Is that nine circles yet? Damn, just 6. Oh well, 6 is a Hellish number so there.

I just wrote this randomly since I stepped on the book earlier today & it came into mind. I'll probably keep updating this as it comes to mind.

~Divina Commedia~

fresh out

Whew, finals: done. That about wraps up my last days of this school year, and in a way, I'm sad to see it go. I've had lots of new experiences, met lots of new people, learned lots of new things, SAW SNOW.

One major thing about college: traveling. "What are you doing this summer?" "Oh I'm taking a tour around Europe, I'm going to Australia, I'm studying abroad in China...You?" "I'm...staying..and working." I don't even plan on leaving the state. Damn damn damn..

Finals I am glad to see go though. They were totally ass-raping, and not enjoyable in the least. Yeah I didn't study nearly enough, but apathy takes over at 3 in the morning when you're on the fourth floor of the library on your second mochasippi remembering the dates and significance of each Crusade.


Freshman year is I suppose officially over. It was fun, I liked it. But hey, if this year was enjoyable, let's hope it only gets better.

get right

So I've been told my expectations of those around me are set too high, for high expectations will only lead to disappointment. Though at first I pondered that it may be true of me, but then I had a thought. I only expect from those, what I myself am capable and more than willing to do. So why is it too much to expect this of them? Why can't I get in return what I so well give? Is it so hard to find someone dependable?

It's really just too exhausting to put up with. I'm disappointed. But I won't be spiteful now and throw it back, or else I'd be shafted down on that level as well, & then how can I morally put up with that?

Look, it's not like I mean to be a jerk, pick fights, or make anyone mad & hate me. I only act in a manner I feel most protective to me. If I do something that bothers you, I'm sorry. Really. I'm told I should check myself, but who would I be, if I didn't act in a way that's purely..me?

Let's call this a learned lesson & move on. Because I'm tired of being mad..

The ID(iot)

My mind is always torn between spite & compassion. So far, spite's in the lead. I know it sounds bad, that one would be no better to exact revenge on another for the mere fact it would "stoop down to their level," but I really really want to! Fuck.

dilemma

I noticed. I saw that look. I saw the seperation. I wished I wouldn't have, but it was just too seemingly obvious. It makes me feel like shit. What can I do to help it? Wait, never mind. I DO know, I'm just not willing to make the effort. I just want to tuck myself in the corner and hide, hoping no one notices.
I hate this. I hate me.

The security blanket: I can't stand it, but what would I do without it? It's shielding me, protecting me from what life really has to offer. But soon, that'll change, won't it? I'll have to face reality & all its not so glamorous details. How does it feel? To be on your own? Do I really want to know?
I'm thankful though, I am.

hey

Man it feels like an eternity since I've written anything. It's not that I haven't had the time, I just have had other things in mind, shuffling priorities around.

School has been..school. Some days are fine & I'm like "wow, today's a really good day." And then there are those "ugh, I can't wait to get home & pretend that didn't just happen."

I'm always on a deadline. I hate that. "Yay it's Friday. Wait, essay due Monday. Fuck shit damn." It never lets me relax. I'm not sure I even do anymore.

I'm conflicted on whether to transfer or not. Initially, after two years of LSU, it's onto UH. Now, I'm not so sure. It's not bad here. Comfortable. But if I don't do this, will I ever leave? It's weird how I'm plannin my future semesters at a time.

Yeah. This is random & crappy. Sorry.

stop

I'm really tired of this. Why must I always be shoved into the spotlight? God, I'm not even there, and my name can't stay out your mouths. If I've done nothing wrong, why treat me so?

I'm always finding myself having to defend me, my morals, my actions. Why question me? Do I question you? Why is it always a test? An interrogation? If this is what it's supposed to be like, I'd rather off being without. It's always "Harrison vs. etc". As many people that maybe be on the other side, my corner is always empty, no one at my back.

Now, I may not like to constantly stand up for myself, but I'll do it to the death. I will never let anyone have the upper hand. And there's no one to stop me. Go ahead. Try. You won't be the first, or the last, so just fall through the cracks.

Is it really something to ponder on why I don't go back more often? It is no home of mine. When I left, I didn't look back.

..I could use a kind word once in a while, you know..

[Oh yeah, thanks for making me feel like crap right before my birthday. Thoughtful present.]

midterms. not fun.

Whew, finally done. I don't think I've ever studied so hard. Not even ACT or SAT. Usually when weariness creeps in, apathy tags along.

Of course it was put off until last minute..which in hindsight was not the wisest decision. But luckily, groups sessions actually prove productive (except for yours Kaylyn, entertaining as they may be!). Though we did often veer off-topic with random conversations, (jew-fros, a tortuous lecture, food, keying cars), a group effort works better.

Only late into the night did I look around and notice: I'm the only one in this that's not white. The whole class, vanilla. I wonder if anyone else's noticed...I don't feel uncomfortable or out of place though. If anything, I feel..unique?

I only got about an hour of sleep last night. Got back from the library at 2:30am, studied more until 4:30, took a nap, then woke up at 6 & studied some more. Joy.

There's this girl in my class who wrote a 20 page review on all her notes, & was gracious enough to send a copy to everyone in the class. I'm really thankful and all, but damn..do you have a life?

Delirious on coffee, coke, & cookies, I went to make an attempt of passing my midterm. Some things went pretty smoothly, some..not. Time flies when you're..getting mind-raped.

OH FUCK YES. I TOTALLY ACED THAT BITCH.