i love being right

nothing is more satisfying than an i told you so. It's not my fault I'm a sensable person

why so?

I hate this. Times have surely changed. And there's no helping it. But you're right. It IS time to move on. Time to leave the past behind. Stick with those still worth being around. Scrap the unnecessary. I don't know. If only I used it as a crutch term this time...

Is it me? I mean, it can't be everyone else. So it must be me. I'm the one that can't go with the flow. But then again, that's nature, that things change. Pause a moment in time, so I can cherish it once more. "Just one more time, baby, just one more time."

another sleepless night

I find myself still up. It's late...well not for me, but if I were a regular person it'd be. I should be going to bed. Homework sits on my bed, opened, yet unfinished. Typical.

But there is a New Year's resolution in mind: to study more, harder....(at all.) Do whatever it takes. So that means the library/Starbucks is second home. I've already started, sort of. I wonder how finals are going to be...I hear VERY stressing. Lovely.

I keep listening to JJ Lin. Especially a certain song, 小酒窝 or Small Dimples. It entrances me. So melodic. "Every night, I can't sleep... I keep thinking of your smile."

Tại sao tôi không thể ghi bất cứ điều gì tốt không?! Tôi suck suck suck!

to fill da void

Yea... Nothing comes to mind as a good blog entry.

So I took another survey to be unique *cough* kaylyn & rachel *cough*

23 Deep Questions

Take this survey
1. What is more difficult: looking into someones eyes when telling how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they tell you how they feel?
I’d say telling sum1 how u feel because it makes me feel vulnerable

2. Think of the last time you were angry. Why were you angry?
ummm dis morning haha. @ mahself tho 4 not getting up earli 2 study.

3. You will die in three minutes. Last call?
wow….i have no idea. I can’t think of any1. Datz kinda depressin.

4. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
b happy

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love.
trust. Love can build off it.

6. You are walking to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss told you if you are late one more time you’re fired. Do you save the dog?
I’d…..try. If mah boss is dat much of an asshole, o well. I’ll find sum other job.

7. Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
No I haven’t but I would 4 sexual favors! Haha jk, or am i?

8. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Do you do it?
ahhh dis damn question! I’m kinda leanin towards no, but dat sounds SOOO bad.

9. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
4 sho! I’m fuckin phantastik!

10. Does sex=love?
No

11. Are you old fashioned?
not realli

12. Would you marry someone if they were unable to have sex?
argh! Um…..no? yes? I dunno! Y da fuck am I taking dis?!

13. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
dat u dun luv dem bak

14. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up?
vision, hearing

15. Romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them?
motherfuck. Rather recent

16. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to, even if you have "no regrets" what would you change?
study harder, not procrastinate

17. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
…..i dun lyke mah initial answer

18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?
yea

19. You are holding onto your grandmother's dying hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other which one would it be?
baby

20. When and how was the last time you told someone how you REALLY feel?
a few weeks ago, but it blew up in mah face
If You had three months to live:
21. Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die?
sum peepl, not jux gonna advertise it

22. What do you do with your remaining days?
travel

23. Would you be afraid?
deathly (haha irony)

Thanks Duong Trieu Vu!

this life i know...

I can't breathe anymore, too overwhelming. I want it to be over with, everything to end.

As another day passes, every aspect of my life slowly deteriorates, some faster than others. Education, friends, family...love. What am I saying? I don't even -have- that to lose it.

Coming in with best intentions to relax, get matters resolved, & have fun, I came out worse than when I started. Things never get better. Merely worse.

Tears solve nothing. It won't pass the astronomy quiz, it won't get me a shoulder to lean on, it won't...put a roof over my head.

Options, slim to none. I can't move there again. It'd be..a step BACK in life. Do I have to endure? Beg? No. Never

I hate this life. I hate everyday. Sống đang được giá trị nó nữa?