frazzled

My computer crashed about a week ago, everything gone. I try not to think about what I've all lost, because it gives me a headache, no really, I get dizzy. I try to look forward. Except for those WG pictures, I freaked out until I realized I still had them on my camera. Thinking back to that, I feel..awkward. Actions & consequences? (7-1=0)

What have I been doing all break? I'm not sure. Random things, & at the same time, nothing. And now school is creeping up, fuck. Though I've been on campus all break anyway, so it's not a complete transition. I always long for days with no agenda, but when I get them, I feel unaccomplished.

I'm still so pissed at my computer. But I guess I have no one to blame but myself. Restore points! Must remember!!

why is incompetency contagious?

Swine flu? Psht, it seems like incompetency is spreading like wildfire. Is it too much to ask for someone to do what they're supposed to do in a timely manner? If it is, then we're fucked.

HARRISON'S INFERNO

My spin on Dante's classic:

*:extra hell for you

Facebook

• people who update their status every 5 minutes (I don't care that you're eating spaghettios and are about to go to work)
• people who become a fan of everything imaginable
• people who forward or suggest random shit
• people who upload pictures of the most insignificant stuff*
• people who quote the bible

Hypocrites

• liars
• bad liars
• adulterers*
• people who say one thing, but do another
• immoral people*
• people who don't keep their word*
• traitors (Dante got that one right)
• people hating something they don't know
• people who don't stand up for themselves yet expect it to be done
• people who never give but always receive*

Bad Drivers

• senior citizen drivers*
• slow drivers
• reckless drivers
• drivers who don't let you merge
• people who own dilapidated cars with nice rims
• drivers with the music loud and the window down just so everyone can hear it too
• drunk drivers
• jaywalkers

Irresponsible, Immature, Ignorant People

• parents who bring their children to adult places*
• loud children
• children in general
• racists...to asians, anyway
• asians who hate soy sauce
• people ignorant, ashamed, or indifferent to their heritage and culture
• viet parents who don't speak to their children in viet
• viet parents who don't name their children consistently (no, you can't have all the children with viet names but one)
• people who think cursing is oh-so terrible*
• people who burst into song randomly
• close minded people
• flakes*
• people who don't acknowledge the past
• people who never try new things
• people who don't say goodbye
• people who wrap everything in religion
• people who push religion on me*
• PEOPLE WHO CANNOT HANDLE ONE SINGLE TASK
• people who judge a book by its cover
• people who deny the obvious
• people who doodle on tests
• people who don't do what their supposed to do
• people who put everything off until the last possible minute
• people who have their priorities explicitly not together
  
• people who don't take responsibility for their actions
• people who don't have an opinion, but just follows the herd

Bad teachers

• professors that BUTCHER names (dan-TEE), terms (velacity)
• teachers who just don't give a damn
• graduate student professors*
• teachers that don't teach
• teachers that can't teach*

People I Hate

• know-it-alls
• people who always lecture me*
• people who scoff at me for being a math major
• attention whores
• people who wear socks and slippers
• people who have an iphone, an ipod, & a mac
• people who go to ryan street high
• the "what-if" people*
• people who write checks at stores and make people in line behind them wait forever*
• the vain & conceited
• people who think a B is literally the end of the world as we know it
  
• people who never face reality
• people who order me around (Hell. No.)*
• braggers
• PEOPLE WHO WRITE CHECKS WHEN 5BILLION PEOPLE ARE WAITING IN LINE
  
• people who love that small, crappy lake town
• people who always go on the offense to everything i say*
• a few of those lsmsa kids
• people who think i'm weird just because i'm allergic to peanuts
• people who say new orlEEEns, nawlins & baton rouJe
• people who correct me!*

Yeah these are probably bad circles. They're not even in order or anything. Is that nine circles yet? Damn, just 6. Oh well, 6 is a Hellish number so there.

I just wrote this randomly since I stepped on the book earlier today & it came into mind. I'll probably keep updating this as it comes to mind.

~Divina Commedia~

The ID(iot)

My mind is always torn between spite & compassion. So far, spite's in the lead. I know it sounds bad, that one would be no better to exact revenge on another for the mere fact it would "stoop down to their level," but I really really want to! Fuck.

wrong side of the bed

Ever wake up when the birds are chirping, the sunlight beams shine into your room, & ur pissed as fuck? Foulest of moods. Yeah, that's me right now. And I have a lot to be mad about. Fucking roaches that need to be stomped. Trust me. Don't start anything you're NOT man enough to finish.

Let's see how the rest of the day goes..

bring it stormy

Go ahead, finish off what I have left here. This chapter of my life is officially over.

high fructose corn syrup, best friend

So I limited myself to merely one coke a day (if any) or if I'm out being social or such. It sucks. Only step one of a diet. NOOOOOOO. Goodbye cellulite, I hardly knew ye. One of my most prized possessions, along with porn.
The sweet fizz of a coke. Fuck why am I giving it up? Damn you Rachel & Aaron. But it's for the best. There's more out there than food and beverage. ........ I don't know either.

nothing's ending, more opportunities are created

Okay, so my high school year is ending with pomp & circumstance. But what is really being lost? I still have everything I want. I have great, dependable friends that I wouldn't trade for anything. My family, however dilapidated, will always be there for me in any time of need. I have a brick that will stand the test of time on a wall of academic achievement. I need to keep telling myself this.

Am I happy? Do I have any attachment to this country, lame-ass city? If I left tomorrow, would there be any remorse? Don't answer these questions, we both know the answer. I promised I wouldn't do this. Damn. "Man I can't wait to leave. I'm not gonna miss crap here." I've gotten too comfortable. Why can't I keep the old and embrace the new? Maybe it'll work this time. Sure it hasn't worked anytime before, but how about another shot? So many friendships becoming a thing of the past. You'd be surprised how distance has an impact on any bond.

In contrast, what is to come can only be uphill. Get a new job, new school, new environment, new friends. Whatever you have to tell yourself.

The future, unpredictable as it may be, is something I can't wait to enter.

spill the beans

secret - something kept hidden or unexplained....damn straight. Sure the term goes "Ignorance is bliss," but please. 21st century here.

putdown

"You see the way I have been drifting down a river to nowhere."

Stop telling me that. I know there are much more worse off. I understand, but this is all I know; why demean that?

...it's true....i'm lazy.....

Yay it's 1:12 AM on January 9, 2008 and here I sit staring into the vortex of Windows XP. My booksack sits behind me unopened, escpecially since I have my Calculus midterm this afternoon.